People coming and going.
Things taking new forms.
Energies aligning and parting.
Life in itself is impermanent. Birth. Breath. Death. Impermanence. And with the realisation of impermanence comes the lesson of non-attachment. Of cherishing each and every person, thing and situation for the beauty they are, the lessons they hold. But cultivating the ability to let go.
I have been called to reflect on impermanence deeply. On letting go. On cherishing the memories and living the energetic connection when loved ones leave. The thought that I might never see them again is painful and yet there is a nurturing feeling of what was and still is. The deep heart connection. A beautiful energy that transcends space and time.
I realise how for the last couple of years of me moving places so often and with that having to let go of being physically close to beloved ones, I have been in a space that I dare call detached indifference. Not that I didn't care about my dear friends and family, but I didn’t allow myself to feel. To feel the sadness when a person leaves. To feel the loneliness and the empty space they leave behind. To feel the craving for physical touch. To feel a little lost at first. Wanting to hide in my introvert cave because meeting new people isn’t always that much fun. But with that indifference I never allowed for the beautiful feeling of heart connection to fully blossom regardless of space and time. A connection that comes from the heart, from the soul - it doesn’t need physical closeness. It blossoms through the energy that I send out to the person that I love and the energy they send back. Always connected. And these connections are what I cherish. These are the people that I hold close to my heart, always. These are the beautifully effortless connections that are nourishing and uplifting. Comforting. Always there.
I have a pattern of 'out of sight out of mind’. I used to be in a state of denial about this, thinking it makes me a bad person that doesn’t care. I would push myself to stay connected with people that I love through calling, social media, skyping and what not. But if it doesn’t come naturally and effortlessly, it drains my energy. There is no good or bad, no black or white. Most people might say this isn’t a good pattern and it might seem like I don’t care - most likely it feels this way to some of the people concerned and loved dearly.
But I am effortless. My life is effortless. Things flow effortlessly. And that’s where I feel authentic to my Self. I don’t push. I don’t force. I let. Allowing the flow of life to unfold like the ocean allows the waves to be powerful or gentle. To be high or shallow. To take life or give life.
I cherish these beautiful heart connections because they are effortlessly nurturing. Effortlessly comforting. Effortlessly THERE. Always. It’s a give and take of love energy. That doesn’t require a call once a week. Or a text every day. And today I hold so so much gratitude for all the people in my life that share this beautiful heart space with me. And I want to apologise to you. If you ever felt like I didn’t care. I do. If you ever felt like I didn’t think about you. I do. If you ever felt like I don’t love you. I do. Dearly!
Impermanence. The core essence of understanding life and how a state of balance is held. Accepting impermanence and letting go. Letting go of the mind stuff. The heart connection stays, forever. It’s effortless and so deeply nourishing. It doesn’t need letting go because that’s our natural innate state of being. We are one. Connected by the heart. Connected through our soul. A connection that might have the capacity to transcend impermanence. What a comforting thought.
I love you.
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